22/09/2026
This is the most difficult post for me to write. I have gone over this in my mind for months and it doesn’t get any easier. Hopefully you will all understand how things have been for me and where I am now
The work I do do has always had 3 elements, the physical part, the mental part and the emotional. All these work together and it’s how I’ve been able to work with a lot horses that others would turn away. I love the psychology of working out the differences between every horse I meet and the more complex the more I want to know. As you can see from the photos I had an accident which I thought would end my career. The physical pain has been immense but the mental and emotional toll it’s taken on me has far outweighed that.
I have always been my own worst critic, looking at every decision I make with every horse to understand what I could do better or change. I thought I knew this one horse enough but I misread the signals and ended up falling backwards and smashing my kneecap on the door. I can stand the physical pain but the rejection of that horse has been devastating for me. It left me questioning whether I was good enough to work with any, whether I can actually hear them. My self confidence went through the floor. It has made me isolate which is why you may have had trouble tracking me down. I have gone from seeing 15-20 horses to seeing 3 or 4 and being completely drained. If you have seen me I can wear a good mask! It’s worth noting that I did that horses teeth and she was absolutely fine, it was just putting the gag on.
It’s maybe difficult for people to understand how this affected me in this way. I live and breathe horses and have done since before I could walk. I’ve ridden since I was 18 months old, broke my first pony at 5 and taken on every ‘reject’ horse I could turning them from ‘he’s crazy’ to dobbins. My obsession with this type is my dopamine hit and every single one gives me that feeling everyday. It does come with some danger but I have no fear and still don’t, I just need to understand.
So I’m jumping ahead but I guess you need to know where I’m at. Well I’m still here. The last couple of weeks I’ve felt I can hear the horses properly, I can talk to them and they know me even if we’ve never met before. The phone will be back on from tomorrow and I am back to my best! My love and passion for dentistry and help every equine is still with me
I’m sorry to everyone who has not heard from me, I hope I can help again going forward. If want to contact me directly my number is 07927 290419 but the office will be open for business as usual
Please don’t think I’m looking for sympathy I just hope you understand. See you all soon!
